hellop.

ermm. i am freaking crazy about THE UPCOMING SPM test ! 

 goshh. !

auhh. tired2. still got time . buleh ke ?

 hurmmm.

acc, addmath, chemistry and physics.

haiyooohhh. how mehhh !

ta cover lagi tuhh. najlaa

haihhhh. chaiyookk ! anyone, pleasee.. i need the power to do this.

kata smagat sket. huhu . ^^,

it was quite awhile since the last time i wrote somethin on my blog..
haha.
its a hell yeah tiring weeks..
struggling for the trials.
and NOW struggling for SPM.
current bff : my books.(well,,yaa ryte)
hahaa.

when a japanese gurl stays at my house..

wuahaha,,
c d title ?
its true ! n i am excited..er,no was excited.
haha. a bit self-conscious at first. but,,who cares ?? asal, i get to know herrr. hee :)

i guess my sistah. whoo is now sitting for her exam gonna be so ridiculously jelloouussss of us fivee !haha xD.
sabar kak.. sabar itu sparuh from iimann.

hehehe.

well.. she is not really good in english.
i have to like, struggle to talk with her.. hahaa ;P.
if say, i talked in Malay..ermm.. hehe
haiyyooo..lg laaa !

for now i managed to ask her where she stayin..
n how old is her..errr..
okay wut ??! at least i did ask her..
c how hard is it to talk with her ?
for 6 hours staying, i managed to ask 2 questions only. haha.
BIG HAND for zaidatunnajla ! wuhuuu.
haha..

-__-.. bored.heehhh.

tp syiuk ta abeh lgy ! awwww~ haha

about da trial post before..

well.. they said it was already been delayed to next month..
and, a wohhooo ! for me..
haha.
guess im not ready yet to hve d trial nxt week..
y ? im just not ready.
im soo in da gay mood ryte now ^__6

preparin to be in a disaster !~

ohh. jussshhh !
trial is cooooommmiinn..
and its freakin me out !23 days.. if i were not mistaken....
meaning.. thee weeks to goo..
do i hv da power to cover ol d holes in ol of my so called 'targeted' 9A plussss subjects  ?
ade kerrr ??
Allahuakbar.. i really2 am startin to get .. u noe.. some kind of sickness which is  not everybody can get..
and i dont realyy know wut name shud i put foe dis disease.. i kinda dont have any idea pownn.
symptoms :

• 1) u startin to get so clumsy, even when u want to eat, u have to b veryyy careful or else !

• 2) u just cannot stop thinking about how is ur current results will affect ur parents

• 3) da 'wut if" question will olweys lingers in ur mind

• 4) u are just do not know hw to strt ur revision.. wut u shud read first, wut u shud concentrate more onn..aaannnddd blah3x

• 5) ur hear stomping fast whenever ur teachers givin comments on d average results of all spm candidates in d skewl.

• 6) whenever people gives u advice, motivates u, u suddenly becomes a' man with a heart of soldier' who is ready  to make their moves to fight for d country [ but its jz dat u fight in ur study laahh].. BUT in d end.. hot hot chicken poops mehh ! haha

• 7) last but not least, ure olweys dreaming of u, havin good results.. flying ur way to da countries ur olweys dreamin of to get thre, to further ur studies.

okay !
THAT s IT ! all da symptoms..
if u have one of those.. u are one of my kind ! hehe. :)

am I toot ?

my2..
oh my.. help me ! god.. i just dun have any idea how to mke myself bettr.
it seems to me that people all around me are just better. nicer.. cleverer..
but me ?
am I STU*** ?
y people get to strive but not me ?
i studied hard oledy.. not dat i want to lament on things like this,,
but it is quite frusatin for me..
not QUITE , alot ! erghh.

ALLAH, help me..
YOU are the only one who can olweys i trust..
please, ..

aahhh ! ;(

a great loss !

sad.. that is exactly wut i feel.

it is really a great3 loss as my beloved teacher  said her goodbye to us dis afternoon ! erpp..meaning, TOMORROW.. there will be  no her againn..aawwhh..guys, it sadden me much !

oh my..  here again..me,readin afiq's post which once again  had managed to hit my feelings [thx .haha]

and, i supposed to tell him bout dis last monday..

dat  he did quite a  gud job in creatin d 'powerful' poem..hahaa.

it really made me to remember all dos bad things i've done to my teacher..

made me cry ! ;( erghh.!

teacher.. if she could read this..

i wud really glad to say..

that i really love her.. im not faking it. real thing, but no fun.

i wish she wud never leave the school. i want her forever to b my teacher.

i mean although she's a bit yalahh. garang..i dun care.. i love her the way she is..

she cud b fun and cud really rise up my smangat to strive my A.

i really dont want to lose her as a teacher..

teacher, how i wish u can read this.

and.. tomorrow.. d day dat i wud cry n cry n cry for i wud lose the best tcer whom i ever had !

o ? she'd gone already by tomorrow.. aaa ! i had already lost her...*gloomy day tmorrow *

i remembered her saying this to us dis evenig in  our class..

she said ' ingat pesanan tcer nih, blaja elok2.jgn malas '.. then *long silence*... she cntinued.. ' cekgu mne pon aja kamu lpas nih,, cube dgar..dgar ckp dorg..appreciate dorang'..then she stop..*more silence* *us, cryinn*..

at last.. she said.. 'just engat bnde nih.. cekgu mna pon..bila die pegang marker tu,ble die tulis je dekat whiteboard tu..ajar kamu.. die will try the best jugak na bg kamu faham..walaopon kamu ta fhm.. die cube smpai abis.. smpai kamu faham betul2x.. ' 

well. THE MOMENT that came out from her mouth.. i was likee.. my tears.. they were unstoppable.. ! my peeps too of course..!

we were very sad at that moment.. there was not even a sound dlam klas tuhh.. a very still silence.. we cudnt say a word..

then.. taufik [da voguest headclass evva].. he broke d silence by askin her full forgiveness.. but wut he said.. it didnt really manage to hit me on d chest lahh..

BUT then.. syamira.one of my peeps.. she spoke.. and this time..everythin dat she said . had really..oh..noo extremely hit me on my chest,my head.my whoolllee body okayy..

she said ' tcer, kami na mintak maaf.. *stop awhile* sorry kalau slama tcer ajaq kmi,kmi ada buat salah.. *cryin* buat tcer terasa ati.. pastu keja uma yg tcer bg kmi buat ta siap..*silence*  n then dulu ade yg ponteng klas tcer..ta masuk klas tcer.. kmi mintak maaf sgt2..harap tcer halalkan sume..*crying,again*..n hope tcer doakan kmi bjaya t"

noe y ? bcuz i did all those baaddd things.. u will never get d idea how BIG is my guilt towards her..

anyway.. i am damn grateful to have a tcer like her..dou she did not manage to two complete years of teachin us..

well..i think thats for now.. adioss !